alrite. b4 aniwan suspects tt i am suicidal i am here to announce that i am fine n well. even after receiving my average A levels results. to my juniors in rj. dun ask me how i do. if u r reallie tt interested go to the board outside GO n have a look at e million of names there. i happened to occupy this small tiny place there. to those who r not my rj juniors. then erhz. u can try asking me. but bear the consequences urself arhz.

aniwae quite alot of things hav happened in the past 6 daes after i hav received my results. but in short i m really quite frustrated lahz. oh well. basically my grades r not tt gd. neither it's tt bad. so it's neither left nor rite. up nor down. it's like w my grades i hav probs getting into e course i wan but it's easy for me to get into some other courses. which proved to be an irritating matter. wow liao! it's damn sianz when u need to go thru so mani websites n stuff n read thru everyting so carefully. n i m lucky in e sense tt i dun hav to work now. since i m jobless. but it's still a chore!

n e most irritatin thing of all is...we r living in singapore! ok i m not anti govt. but i m really fed up w e education here esp the tertiary education! when SMU was set up. e govt sae it was to instill a greater variety n scope of courses here. n wat do we hav? similar courses!!! if u eva feel bored. feel free to go to e 3 main Unis' website n look at their list of courses offered. it's so similiar i reallie dun c e pt of a 3rd university. they r all fighting for e same pple. n tt grp of pple does nt include mi. i m left out.

so 2 end off my whinin. i shall elaborate on my trip to the career n education fair at suntec on fridae w xiuli. after a much needed gym session since i haven being exercising for ages. we made our wae to bishan/rj coz we needed to certify our photocopies. arming w e documents. i persuaded xiuli to go to the fair w mi.

n after nuaing ard. we came across this booth tt is representing this grp of 6 hotels schs in the world. the girl who tokked to us is obviously a part timer so she wasnt quite sure of e answers to some of my qns. thus she brought this guy to tok 2 me. n immediately the guy asked me wat's my results. n i replied as it is. then he gave me this 'despise' look and sae high almightily tt they onli accept students w gd results. n i went like wat? hello! tt's like e ultimate insult u can eva deal me lahz. wow liao! then i asked him how gd shld it be. then he replied w a qn: how mani subjs do i take? n i replied 4 n he went like aren't u supposed to take at least 7? i would hav bash him rite at tt moment if not 4 e fact tt i m in a public place. 7? he tink i m tokkin abt O levels arhz? e girl seemed to realise tt situation is not exactly tt pleasant and asked another lady to tok 2 me. n in e process i unknowingly filled up e application form n passed her e freshly photocopied/certified documents n received a timeslot for an interview. it happened so fast tt it's really weird. oh well.

so i went for e interview yesterdae after pulling out my hair e dae b4 trying to type a 1 page long essay on 1. why i want to study in the sch 2. why i need e scholarship. it's really ironic since i was like referring to the brochure all e time n how r u supposed to elaborate on those 2 qns? luckily w e help frm birdie i was able to print the grammatically correct essay. heez. n e interview went smoothly. apparently tt lady was pretti impressed w mi. hmmz. so we shall see how it goes lahz. sighz. but e fees r reallie a killer. i seriously dun noe where to get e money...becoz e scholarship is onli AUD 7 500 while e complete tuition fee is AUD 58 000. excluding accommodation n wat u hav. but e course structure is reallie reallie attractive. oh well. we shall see how it goes.

so now i m busily looking for a job n looking for alternatives in case i dun make it in singapore. yupz. but while searching for e hotel course rite. i m reallie attracted 2 being in tt industry but on e other hand. med is like a life long dream which most prob is going to be shattered soon. sighz. oh well. who can i blame but myself 4 not muggin hard e past 2 yrs even up till A levels? i m too slack. wae too slack. but ironically. i did e best in subjs tt i didnt reallie study n e worst in subjs i studied. revised. etc. rubbish manz. sighz.

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 11:28 am