i am in a super happie mood todae. hahahaz.

first of all. i handed in my fyp on friday. even though it made me sleep at 6am in the morning on friday. but at least i finished my part. once again. i dun noe why i ended up doing alot of tings again. ALOT. but at least it's handed up and it can no longer bother me. regardless of the grade i get for it. i will still get 2nd lower. so forget it. and i dun hav to see my gpmate anymore. phew.

secondly. i m finally gettin into the choing mode for photography. i developed 8 full usable prints for my photography coursework submission and i hope to finish developing everyting by thursday and submit the coursework in time. and i must say i m quite proud of my work. looks pretty presentable =)

thirdly. i spent a great day/evening playing at beep2's house yesterdae! =) even though i was rushing bear2's birthdae present even during tuition and on the car from jurong east to beep2's place. but it was still real fun!

i had one of the longest car rides one can ever take in singapore, thus making it a mini (and according to sumwan who said it should also be known as awesome) road trip in our tiny island of singapore. trying to sketch and shade on the car is not a very smart idea but it was great to have lotsa laughter in the car with kay key and adrian.

and we were introduced the game of texas' poker by adrian and it got everywan hooked...except maybe tham2 and me. hahahaz. i totally cannt bluff pple. sianz. and we lost alot of 'money' to ban2. irritating.

but yahz! it was still super fun to play lahz. =) so fun to play that...i missed my last train/bus home and had to 'force' monsieur lai to drive me back home. i feel quite bad because my place is totally out of the way for him. and it's the first time i reached home at...1.38am in the morning. hahaha. no more cinderella. tsktsk.

i am really grateful that i met them in switzerland. and i guess our shared experiences did have an impact on us ba. =)

and...the most important thing is... my nephew is born yesterdae at 10.01pm!

he is super duper CUTE! and he totally look like my brother. seriously. but he is a very sleepy baby...or maybe all babies are sleepy. but i am super happie now! hahahaz. i can be a 'paedophille' for the next few years! i always have a soft spot for cute baby boys or toddlers. erps. so cute! =)

and my niece sumhow is super scared of my baby nephew. hahahaz. i guess when my niece was born i was abit too young (at the age of 18) to fully understand or appreciate the birth of a newborn into the family. so now my parents are proud grandparents of two grandchildren.

it's kinda funny yet touching watching my brother learn to change diapers and pat the baby. ok lahz. shall not bored you with the details then.

today is a happie dae =)

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 9:43 pm

photography is really tiring.

beside carrying a heavy tripod and lugging a big bag containing the antique camera around, i still need to maintain some really yoga-ish poses when taking photographs.

according to adrian. my pose while taking a plant in the middle of the railway at bukit timah looks like something out of matrix. the movie. hahahaz.

it was a super unproductive day yesterdae becoz it rained from 3 pm into...this morning. i wanted to take evening shots and night shots but obviously it didnt come true. SIGH.

and today i spent 3 hours walking around woodlands like sum silly crazy photographer. hahahaz. everywan stared at me even the 911 bus uncles. erps. and...i was 'scolded' by the person in charge of woodlands stadium becoz i nv seek permission to take photos of the running tracks and chairs. PLEASE LAH! i am not interested in bombing woodlands stadium can!

seriously. taking photographs in singapore is such A PAIN! there is noting spectacular to take and you are treated with so much suspicion.

but yah. my feet feel numb...and i have muscle aches. hahahaz. i finished the minimum 4 rolls for my last photography assignment but i bought another 2 rolls at city hall yesterdae.

see how first. even if i dun use them for my assignment i dun mind taking and then developing them for personal uses. hahahaz. =)

on a separate note. i realised that okto cut alot of scenes from the movies they showed in filmart specials. which is...understandable i guess as i do agree with kay key that it's supposed to be a family frenly channel.

but then. wouldn't it be betta if they just dun air those shows then? yesterdae's cinq fois deux or 5 times 2. made mi so confused lahz! wow liao. i was really blur throughout the show. and i seriously dun really get wat the movie is trying to sae. hmmmz.

sighz. need to meet fyp prof 2molo. and...i guess i will be very busy with fyp again. totally not looking forward to it. but i cant wait for it to be over. so that i dun hav to see her animore.

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 3:18 pm

i went on a photo expedition today, armed with a super professional looking and heavy tripod and of course, the star. the antique film slr...i was at redhill, the place where i spent two months volunteering with youth challenge after a levels. the place where i wondered did i make a difference to all the elderly who lived in those one room flats.

it brought back questions on what have i done these 3 years? and did i drift away from what i set out to achieve 3 years ago?

the elderly were really frenly...and lonely. and i met this old man who is 97 years old this year...and he was a very accomplished photographer and painter. he kept on telling me that life is short and to be happy and content always.

and i did super real stupid and typical estella-ish. i changed my roll of film after lunch...and intelligently left that completed roll of film on the stool in the hawker centre and walked away. i didnt realised until 1 hour later...and by then it has disappeared into one of the numerous dustbins.

all my effort is gone! including some really not bad shots. i was super depressed. sighz. now i have to buy a new roll of film and retake the shots. =(

but i must thanx tham2 and adrian for accompanying me today for the bukit timah stretch. especially tham2 who accompanied me to feed the mosquitoes at the railway track in bukit timah and for driving me around. =)

and i finally submitted my fyp first draft. i spent 4 days typing 49 pages and 9000 plus words. yet i had to suffer injustice yet again. every time. every time i have to do fyp. there is drama. seriously. i feel like telling her. can you please be fair to me for once? can you please act responsibly for once? can you please treat me with respect for once?

one thing for sure. after the submission. i do not want to have anything to do with her anymore. she has proved to be unworthy of being my friend. unworthy of my attention. unworthy of a mention in my life from now on.

i am such a weakling. i avoid confrontations at all costs. sighz.

and i have set my mind to study medicine le. nus-duke. if not...like wat ah keow say. i can always fall back on nus medicine...just that i will be real old as compared to my peers.

it's time to stop thinking about what other pple is doing and what about me as compared to them.

i am different, according to some people. you know who you are. and thank you for believing in me. perhaps i am really different. perhaps you are too... =)

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 10:18 pm