being totally unproductive once again. hahahaz. was telling mrs goh aka ming eng yesterdae that once in a blue moon. i will have this strange motivation that will turn mi into a supreme studious person. but unfortunately. it never occurs during exams. sighz. that's so sad.

i have only completed 2 biz law chapters till date. and i have not touched my french!!! arghz!!!

anyway was thinking about something yesterday. and i am wondering how do you define the 'close' factor in friendships arhz? this is abit out of topic with my current situation (exams) but yahz. when you are studying sometimes you will need something to distract you. heez.

is it determined by the amount of time you spent together? or the physical distance between you? or the amount of things that you all said to each other? or the depth of the topics that you all discussed? or the amount of secrets shared? or the amount of hugs exchanged? or the amount of arguments that you all had? or the amount of trust that you all had in each other? or something that i have not considered?

hmmz. just a small thought. heez. the thing about this blog is...i don't know who is reading it. hmmz or i should say i don't know who else is reading it besides the people i know will be reading it. i used to have a private blog but was too lazy to update. wahahaz.

but nonetheless. in a 'public' blog. i think i can still say some stuff without implying. i think i am getting smarter! heeheez.

and back to the topic on exams. IT was quite bad in the sense that the topic i previously thought was not important came out in one whole question worth 30 marks. and that's seriously gross. what happened was that the topic was not covered in textbook. and my notes dun hav anitin on it. but my tutor posted 2 video clips on it asking us to watch them on our own in one of the seminars. and i dun remember my tutor telling us that it was important until after exams mrs goh said he did. sighz. but it's after exams liao so no use...but horz. maybe got intuition lehz. coz the nite b4 i kept on thinking that i need to study that but can't find any resources to study. which is jialat. so in short. didn't study it too.

and the ER diagram is hopeless. hahahaz. i am an ER diagram dummy. and i don't understand what do they mean by drawing up the tables. hahahaz. so 30 marks gone. wow. i am really smart manz. therefore in short. i am once again relying on my luck. and i wonder will i ever use it up one day. hmmz.

i missed my darlin and yii ean lehz. because i know that they will be there to listen to me when i need a listening ear. hmmz. ok lahz. muz add a few more pple or else they complain i don't treat them as frens. heeheez. yee keow you know you are in the list. mrs goh also. and...e list is quite long. hmmz. ok just abit melancholic. i will be fine after...i have my tv break! hahahaz. discovery channel here i come!

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 1:47 pm

对的人
演唱人：戴爱玲

你問在我心中　是否還苦惱
那次受傷　否決了愛的好
謝謝你的關照　我一切都好
一個人　不算困擾

＊愛雖然很美妙　卻不能為了寂寞
又陷了泥沼

＃愛要耐心等待　仔細尋找　感覺很重要
寧可空白了手　等候一次　真心的擁抱
我相信在〔這個〕世界上　一定會遇到
對的人出現〔在眼角〕

那次流過的淚　讓我學習到
如何祝福　如何轉身不要
在眼淚體會到　與自己擁抱
愛不是一種需要　是一種對照

重唱　＊,＃

能願意為了一份愛付出去多少
然後得到多少並不計較
當我想清楚的時候　我就算已經準備好
放手去愛　海闊天高　WO WO WO WO YEAH

重唱　＃,＃

i like this song alot! she is a very good singer...very powerful =D


i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 10:36 pm

e race to death and freedom is on.

in case you don't know what i am talking about (because you don't have imagination/you were never a slacker/your last education took place trillion of years ago/you don't understand english/or you feel that my vocabulary cannot make it) my examinations have officially begin today at 1pm sharp.

from then till 30 april, 11 am. i would be fighting for my survival, my future, my career and my honour. hahahaz. ok that sounds really crappy. aiyahz. i am supreme sianz lahz in short. because as usual. yours truly here. is taking every single opportunity to slack and not study. seriously.

i can't study at home because of the presence of SCV! urghz! i spent 3 days at home watching discovery channel (which is supreme educating, enriching and interesting, but does not aid me in my exams) and other chinese entertainment channels...i am seriously hopeless. sighz.

i don't find the motivation to study. it's like i don't really care about the specialisation that i am going to liao. i don't bother to consider first class, 2nd upper, 2nd lower or even honours at all. i am just plainly in the 'heck care' mode...until yee keow told me her good news.

it was right at that moment that i realised that i need to care. i must care. because if i don't do well now. i would never be able to fulfill that dream at all.

there are times. when i am alone staring into space. that this question will come back to haunt me. will i have make a different choice if i am given a second chance? but every time i just can't seem to answer that question. no matter how hard i try.

i know that by making this choice a year ago, in a way, i have decided my life path. i have done precisely what i believed. when one door closed/slammed in your face, another one will open for you. i left that closed door and open another door. but should i have stayed at that closed door and knock again and again? or find means to open it e.g. with magic words etc?

but i guess i lacked the courage that yee keow possessed. and i can't bear the pressure from others especially my family. so maybe...it's much simpler than i think.

but just want to wish yee keow all the best because you will always have my support girl! i pass you my luck if required and remember that you are completing our dreams! jia you!

back to depressing topic. my accounting exam is pretty dead lahz. first of all, i only started to study for it yesterday when i came back to hall. and though i tried very hard to balance my cash flow statement...i failed to do so lahz.

and as usual if i don't do anything silly or stupid, i will not be myself. i was planning to go to the washroom after finishing my paper. but just as i want to raise my hand to ask for permission in the examination hall. the examiner announced that we are left with 15 mins to the end of the paper. which is to say. i can't leave the hall! so i had to wait for another half an hour before i can leave the hall to go to the washroom.

and because i was in such agony. i couldn't think for the last 15 mins of the paper. thus obviously, i didn't write anything or make any improvements to my answers. it's supreme nuax lahz. sighz. i am just plain hopeless.

next paper is IT on thursday 3pm. i don't even know how to study for this paper lahz. sighz. the most nuax computer dummy has to pass her IT!!! arghz!

and my exchange is giving me alot of headache. i shall complain next time (after exams).

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 9:21 pm