sighz. forget it. i am going to revert back to my original writing/blogging/typing style. the previous entry almost killed me lahz! it's so hard and weird for me to blog in near to standard english since blogging is supposedly a casual/private thing. though it's not that private lahz. i used to have a private blog but haven update it for like 10 mths plus le. i am thinking of going back to it. perhaps since i can really rant and "screams" and do wateva that i wanna do. hopefully.

i am in one of my mood swing now. aiyahz i also dun know why but i m quite badly affected by how pple viewed me which is a bad thing in most circumstances. i always viewed myself as a gd motivator. a nt tt bad listener. i didnt noe that i would be e wan who bring e grp morale down. i am juz sianz of everything now lahz. seriously. w so much time on hand becoz i am not working. i juz dun noe wat 2 do. even though i hav one long list of "to dos" but i juz dun seem to start doing them. perhaps i shld juz shut up n dun sae aniting. tt will be e best wae. chinese has this saying. "huo chong kou chu" trouble originates frm the mouth. n i guess it's reallie true.

i am losing sleep for e past 4 daes. i juz cant sleep no matter how late it is. n becoz of this i m getting up later and my body feels reallie weird. i dun noe how 2 explain it lahz. and i am suffering frm constant headaches. this is getting reallie bad. if continue like this i think i may have another fainting spell soon. sighz.

basically nothing much to say now. since i am spending most of my time at home. transportation cost is eating up a big hole in my pocket and the best way to save money is not to go out at all. but i still managed to drag myself to meet my sqmates for dinner on fridae evening. we went to this "ming ge chan ting" (restaurant where there are singers) at marina square that area. the singers are reallie funnie and i spent an enjoyable nite there listening to their jokes and of course. their vocals are gd too. we managed to persuade my ah gong suyi to go up and perform and we saw MAIA LEE there too! wooho! and she gamely went up to the stage to sing a song for us. it was a great nite and though the cost is abit steep i think i would be going back again if i have the chance.

went for the ipho training yesterdae. met the rest of the SLOs who would be sharing a bus with me and our Chief SLO who is in charge of our bus. we have reallie cool countries on board the same bus and i made a few more frenz! hahaz. went to kampong glam with lala first before continuing e training w my bus grp and our dear CLO bought us teh tarik! Elizabeth is so nice! if i m not wrong. she is e 5th Elizabeth i know. hahaz. after which we went on a bus tour of little india before moving to the nite safari where we orientate ourselves w e trails and the prog. though e hike was abit rushed but it's still pretti fun and it's a gd wae for mi to exercise. hahaz.

n to anon. i understand what u r driving at. but what i can sae i hav alrdy said lahz. it's too late to reconsider le since e universities have alrdy sent out e letters. money makes the world go round. no money no talk. nothing more need to be said. i would juz hope for the best now. perhaps i would regret it but that would be then not now. it's juz to fulfill a dream and to tell myself that i have done it. i have done wat i wanted to do. e rest we will juz let nature take its course. ultimately. i wished to enter the medical field. i juz wish to live a life w no regrets coz i did wat i want to do.

seriously nt in e mood to do analytical argument now. reallie. anon perhaps next time then discuss w u in more details lahz. so which area r u going to pursue in ur studies?

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 10:35 pm