how do u noe if u r unlucky?

watched 'just my luck' with win2 2dae. e whole theatre onli hav 6 pple. thanx goodness i dun watch horror movies or can u imagine how scary it will be? eekz! aniwae. e movie is quite ok lahz. juz tt how lucky/unlucky e leads can be is reallie funnie. hahaz. how can pple walk outside then suddenly rainy dae become a bright sunny dae? but ok lahz. it's nt as crappy or as lousy as sum other movies i hav watched. hahaz.

n i wan linsay lohan's figure. sighz. i can continue to dream...

but juz to add to my list of unfortunate events...i met a pervert online 2dae. yes. pervert. e last pervert i met was when i was in j2. n tt time. i met a total of 3 perverts in 6 mths. it's tt nuax. sighz. n i was reallie vry petrified lahz i tell u.

a gurl fren of mine. who i haven reallie tok 2 for sum time tok to mi on msn 2dae. it started off as a polite conversation w noting out of place until she said tt recently a close guy fren of her send her an email w naughty pics attached. she started to ask mi what i tink abt e incident n i was like trying to understand e situation betta. suddenly she asked mi if i wanna to see e naughty pic tt was attached to e email. n i stupidly sae i dun mind. she asked mi if there is aniwan ard mi n i reassured her by saeing tt i was alone at home.

when i opened e email n saw e pic of a naked man w his sexual organ exposed i was in a total shock. n wat's more scary was tt my fren. or whom i thot was my fren. started to ask mi wat i tink of it. she asked mi if it is shocking? n i replied yes tinking tt she meant did e content of e pic shocked mi. apparently there's nt e case. 'she' actuallie wanted to noe wat i thot abt e size. is it shockingly not normal. n rite at tt moment. realisation dawned on mi. my fren is nt my fren after all. later when i went to her blog. then i realised tt her email accounts were hacked into.

i was so petrified tt i immediately set my status as appear offline n quickly msn all my guys frenz who were online at tt moment. but everywan ignored mi (partly becoz almost all of their status r awae). imagine my relief when grandpa finally answered mi. i was reallie scared even though there is no physical contact at all unlike my previous brushes w perverts 1 yr ago. i tink it's e feeling of being targeted. i feel vry vulnerable. sighz.

thanx goodness grandpa helped mi came up w e perfect retort tt will bruise any man's ego. hahaz. n i immediately blocked e contact. hopefully my fren will set up another email account soon. phew!

i hav no idea why i always attract e wrong kind of attention. seriously. n tis incident reminds mi of wat happened 1 yr ago. e first 2 bad encounters. i was wearing my rjc uniform. n becoz e skirt is pleated n nt a-line skirt. alot of pple thot tt i was frm a sec sch. n my skirt is nt vry short. it's within reasonable length or towards one of e longest length among my schmates.

e first incident happened when i was going home one nite. ard 8 plus pm. i alighted frm e bus n walked towards my block n enter e lift. becoz i was listenin to my discman i didnt exactly take notice of my surroundings. a guy ard early 20s enter e lift after mi n he looked at mi for a few seconds before he pressed e floor button tt i had alrdy pressed. slowly e door close. suddenly he turned towards mi. n my reflex reaction was to hold e thick file tt i was holding in my rite hand between e 2 of us. n my left fist was clenched in a ready to fight position n stared at him. come tink abt it. i dun even noe why i hav tt reaction n i m amazed at my reflexes. i tink e guy was shocked too. n in his attempt to calm mi down. he started to tok. but he was speaking so softly tt i can barely hear him so i took off one of my earphones with my eyes still trained on him. n guess wat he sae?

"dun worry. i meant no harm" or sumting similar.

thanx goodness e lift reached e landing n i quickly leave e lift. but he refused to give up n followed mi n even blocked mi frm turning to my house which is next to e lift. i was reallie scared lahz even though it's alot betta than stuck in e lift w him. finally i cant take it n asked him wat he wan. n he actuallie asked mi where is e bus stop to take Bus XXX. wow liao! where got pple wanna ask which bus stop to take by following pple into lifts? n when i asked him where he wanna go. he took so long to reply tt it's obvious he's lying. i gave him e directions but he still refused to let mi pass. i was ready to scream for my mother when he put out his hand n sae he wanna thanx mi. out of frustration n desperation. i shook his hand. n guess wat he sae?

"which secondary school r u from?"

obviously he thot i was sum stupid naive innocent girl which is definitely wrong. n i said simply. "rjc"

if u tink tt's e end of my bad luck. u r wrong. soon after e incident. one afternoon. on my wae home on e mrt. i met another pervert. as a model(nt exactly lahz) passenger. after boardin e train i moved to e centre of e carriage n stand infront of a middle age guy. he stared at my file before lookin up to smile at mi. i thot there was sumting weird at e cover of my file but when i bent my head to look at it. there was nothing. when i looked up again. he started to smile at mi again. n tis time i noe sumting is nt rite. thanx goodness. a person sittin 2 seats awae frm him alighted n i quickly sat down. using e person between us as a shield. but who noes? tt 'shield' alighted at e next stop! arghz! but another person quickly sit down again. thanx goodness!

throughout e whole journey. he kept on turning to my direction n i kept on hiding behind e profile of e person between us. when we r one stop awae frm my stop. e 'shield' once again alighted. e man turned his body to face mi. n slowly he slid over to e seat beside mi. imagine my horror! once he reached e seat beside mi i quickly stand up n move to the next carriage. n he actuallie followed mi so we alighted at e same stop. arghz!!! i ran down e escalator n into e adjacent shoppin mall wout a backward glance. wat relief it proved to be when i m certain tt he is nowhere in sight.

so u c how unlucky i m. n i m nt sum great beauty or wat. but why do i keep on attractin tis type of wrong attention? perhaps it's time to go n pray... sighz. i need betta luck. i seriously need betta luck. maybe i shld follow e actions of e leads in e movie. hahaz.

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 8:02 pm