i almost cried.

or i shld said tt tears well up in my eyes. but i managed to kept them back. yesterdae (2 hours ago) was one of the closest moments i came to crying. eva since ipho. i promised not to cry at e airport unless e person leaving mi is nv going to come back here. to singapore. but yesterdae. i almost lost my control becoz it suddenly dawn on me tt e pple who i sent off will not be able to meet me on impulse for a movie, shopping trip or juz plain hanging out for the next few mths or even a yr. i guess i reallie have severely slow reaction.

when boon2 left. it came as a shock as i wasnt informed of her flight. when nana flew off on mondae. it was getting into me n i felt this sadness. when xiu li flew off 2 hours ago. i was reallie quite sad. becoz i guess over e yrs. i hav grown reallie close to her.

writing a 3 pages long letter (a5 size) to her n recollecting all our shared memories from sec 2 till now. i guess we hav reallie come vry far. n tinking abt all these shared memories remind mi how close our nanyang 4/08 clique is. we tried as far as poss to meet for christmas celebration every yr and exchange gifts. e encouragements shared during exams. e 'bickering' in sch. e laughter shared as lame/cold jokes are told. e nicknames tt we had for each other. all e spastic things tt we do even though we (excluding me) r fairly intelligent beings. but now. some of us hav left/r leaving n i cant help but wonder will our frenship last since all of us r caught up in our lives.

but once again. i shall choose to believe in ourselves. becoz i will be much happier if i do. n why shld i invite more troubles/worries for myself?

spending e past 2 nites in e airport until 11pm w e staying clique has being a great experience. partly becoz everywan has become more n more nonsensical w alot of lame/cold jokes up their sleeves. but it also reminds mi tt no matter wat happen. i noe i hav this group of frenz to turn to. becoz we worked fantastically well w each other under all circumstances. this type of bond is vry hard to forge w aniwan else.

i wish u all the best for your future endeavours dears. n i shall end off w my fav phrase...muz remember to miss me arhz!

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 12:52 am