you know i am getting emo when my blogging frequency increases. like right now.

i am sad and while i know i sound like spoilt brat for saying this. but i cant help but feel a little helpless. very uncertain and in need of assurance.

it's true that at least i have gotten an offer from uob now and that now i have a safety net. or sort of. but it's because i have this safety net that i feel helpless and irritated with myself for the things i have to do.

too bad things don't usually turn out the way we want them to be no matter how hard we try. i don't dare to count my eggs too early but i have to buy time for myself.

why do things get so complicated? maybe it's because i am a very greedy girl. but i really really don't want to live with regrets.

life is like a poker game. as a very conservative player i should have folded. what should i do now? gamble everything??? when nothing is certain...

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 12:16 am